On July 10, I brought my mom to Tucson. Mom hadn’t been feeling well for some time. In fact, just a few days before I got her, she was diagnosed with pneumonia and given a steroid and antibiotic.
The day after we got to Tucson, she needed to go to the ER – she couldn’t breathe. She was given another Rx for antibiotics and sent home. Five days later, we went to Urgent Care and were given a nebulizer. Three days after that, we had to call an ambulance and she was admitted to hospital. Almost immediately after being admitted to the hospital, she lost use of her legs and was catheterized. She was in the hospital for seven days. On her sixth day there, she was informed that she had stage 4 lung cancer, adrenal cancer and cancer in her bronchia. The oncologist told her that she had a couple of months and that she could double that with chemo.
Mom at Hoover Dam
My mother decided she didn’t want to do chemotherapy. She didn’t want to feel even worse for the time she had – not for just a couple of extra months. I honored her wishes and called the oncologist to let her know. The oncologist yelled at me and discharged my mother the following day. Mom had asked to go to Hospice and was transferred.
Mom was in hospice for five days. She’d been insistent that she didn’t want to come to my home and we were having a hard time trying to figure out what to do to accommodate that wish. I finally just told her it would be easier if she’d just come home with me. She was transferred to my home on Wednesday, July 30.
The following Monday, she stopped eating and drinking and was mostly unresponsive. I used swabs to get water into her and made sure she was not in pain. The next day, she rallied and was eating and drinking some, her eyes and her speech had changed a LOT, but she could communicate to a degree. She did that a couple times that week, fall into a mostly unresponsive state then she’d rally a bit the following day.
Friday, August 8, my brother, his wife, my sister, her husband and their baby came. Mom was somewhat communicative – sometimes she’d start a sentence, fall asleep and wake up to finish the sentence 10-20 minutes later. But she did not perceive the time lapse – she thought it was no time at all, so she’d think that someone disappeared. That day, she asked me “When will that man be here?” and “I’m ready to go, where is that man?” I’m certain she was referring to my father, who passed in 1991. Earlier, I’d related to her what I’d seen when I died with my pulmonary embolism and told her I knew dad was waiting for her. I think she was ready to go and terrified to let go at the same time. There were a few times she saw someone standing next to me that I couldn’t see – she’d ask me “who is that?” and I’d look where she pointed. “Who does it look like?” I was not going to tell her “I don’t see anyone there, Mom”. No.
Saturday, August 9, Mom slipped into a completely unresponsive state in the early evening. While we kept her meds going for her round the clock and gave her drops of water with swabs, it was obvious that she was on her way – there would be no more rallying.
The following morning about half past 8, her breathing slowed to a stop. One month to the day from when I brought her here. My sister in law, Debbie, was a complete treasure to have with me during this and I will be grateful for her forever.
Where did that doc get two to three months? I know that it’s a guesstimate to begin with, but seriously – mom lasted two WEEKS from the day she got diagnosed, not two months. This is not expressed with anger or resentment (honest!), but with some astonishment. This has been like a whirlwind.
For her, I am glad it was quick. Her pain was massive and global – not just in her back, but everywhere (adrenal failure – the little oh-so-important organs couldn’t mitigate inflammation). But quite honestly, it feels so fast to me and so slow at the same time – I think my brain really hasn’t fully processed this yet.
I’ve completely lost Monday and Tuesday even though I went to a meeting at the funeral home one of those days.
There are some funny stories that happened during all of this. After that Monday’s drastic downturn, but during one of her rallying days, Mom wanted some dried pineapple. But she couldn’t find the word. She kept saying pumpernickel. Pumpernickel, pumpernickel. No. That’s not the word… It’s small and yellow. Now, Mom had been watching a lot of Spongebob on Roku (her nerves – remember, the adrenals were pretty much gone – so the only thing they were producing, if anything, was adrenaline and she couldn’t move her body to burn the adrenaline off), so when she said small and yellow, I thought “oh, she wants me to turn on Spongebob”. So I asked her “Spongebob?” and she said “no, but he lives in one under the sea”. OH! Pineapple.
My mom’s dog, Sadie, came along with mom. Now, my mom was not one of those ladies who has a little pooch she hauled around with her. Sadie was born underneath my mother’s neighbor’s house. The house is a rental and the people who lived there at the time had 3 dogs. When the mama dog was gravid, they did not increase her food. Mom didn’t realize that until one day, when a pup dragged itself to my mother’s doorstep – it’s eyes weren’t even open yet. Mom put the pup back under the house with the mama dog and she saw that the mama dog had separated the pups into two groups – the keepers and the can’t-keepers. Mom called around trying to get some intervention for the situation, but no one could or would help. Mom started feeding the mama dog. Even so, that pup dragged herself to mom’s door a second time. That pup was Sadie. She weighs 70lbs today.
While Mom was in hospital and hospice, I’d put Sadie outside every morning before I left to go visit Mom. Well, she’d decided I’d done
Sadie – AFTER she’d decided I wasn’t Cruella.
something terrible to Mom and wouldn’t let me near her. She acted as though I was Cruella out to make a Sadie coat. I’d have to pick Sadie up and carry her outside, then make it back to the door before she did. Every single morning. She’d howl the entire time I was gone. Upon my return, she’d smell Mom on me, and want to go out to check the garage and car for where I was hiding Mom.
One morning, thinking it would help the dog and maybe Mom, I did take Sadie to Hospice. The place caused Sadie to panic completely (maybe she thought it was the vet’s office or maybe it was the aromatherapy they pump into the air there) – she dragged me out of there with so much force I thought she was going to tear my shoulder up. Even after that, though, Sadie wanted to check the garage and car every day.
The day Mom came home from hospice, Sadie was so happy. She loved on mom, licked her hand and walked over to where I was sitting and put her head down against my knees. She looked me in the eye and I knew she realized what was going on. She didn’t act like I was Cruella again after that.
Sadie stopped going into Mom’s room to visit her on August 7th. The kids take Sadie on very long walks through our neighborhood every day and that’s good for all three of them. :)
And life goes on…. She wouldn’t want it any other way.
Ever find yourself in the kitchen thinking about something to eat and decide to try two foods together you’ve never had together before? Then it was super yummy? Yeah, that’s kind of what happened with this soap… :) I had an idea of what I wanted to do with Lemon and Goat Milk, then decided to add some buttermilk and carrots right in the middle of things.
A beautiful, low-coconut formula made with silk, goat milk, homemade buttermilk, organic honey, organic red palm oil, puréed organic carrots and the zest & juice of an entire lemon from my brother’s and sister-in-law’s lemon tree! The carrots offer their vitamins and minerals to the beauty of this soap – they also contribute to the beautiful, sunny color. The lemon lends it’s share of vitamins and minerals as well as it’s heavenly SCENT! An abundance of fatty acids, vitamins, minerals and probiotics from the Goat Milk, honey and Buttermilk. The organic red palm oil gives vitamins E and A as well as contributing to the color. Vitamin-rich Avocado oil infused with Annatto seeds was the final contribution to the color of this soap, making certain the sunny yellow would be vivid. Top it off with the (I know, cliché) poppy seeds and yowza!
Super fat of about 6% – this is a gently cleansing, beautiful, beautiful soap. Each bar weighs about 5.5 oz and is offered at $8.00 here
In it’s previous incarnation, Avocado soap was a true luxury, with many of our customers remarking that they no longer had to use moisturizer after introducing the Avocado soap into their skin care regimen. This is even more – more superfatted, more luxurious.
A fine tallow soap enriched with the flesh of organic avocado, vitamin-rich organic avocado oil, emu oil, organic aloe vera, jojoba, mango butter, shea butter, raw organic cocoa butter, lanolin and nothing less than luxurious mink oil – superfatted to 10% – each bar weighs in at just under 4 oz. Essential oils of lavender, bergamot and melissa contribute their scent and healing qualities. This fine facial bar is excellent skin care.
This is a LOW SUDSING formula – because of it’s luxurious ingredients, this soap will not make a big, bubbly suds – but it will clean the skin all the same – well not the ‘same’. It will be gentler than other, more sudsy soaps. :)
Remember that these super fatted soaps do have a shelf life – they’re good for about a year after obtaining them, so use them or put them in the freezer. Offered at $9.00 per bar here
Ingredients: Tallow, Palm oil (sustainable), Goat Milk, Extra Virgin Olive Oil, NaOH, Water from Lourdes, Organic Avocado Oil, Raw Organic Cacao Butter, Organic Mango Butter, Raw Shea Butter, Organic Lavender Essential Oil, Sweet Almond Oil, Rice Bran Oil, Organic Sunflower Seed Oil, Wildcrafted Silk, Kaolin Clay.
Lourdes water is water which flows from a spring in the Grotto of Massabielle in Lourdes, France. People make the trek to Lourdes from all over the world. They want to touch, drink, and immerse themselves in the healing spring waters. There have been many healings and miracles attributed to the water and the place. We’re bringing a little bit of that beautiful healing water to you. I’ve been making this soap for our household for years, now, and my husband asked me why I wasn’t making it for everyone else, too?
Don’t really have a great answer for that except that I wasn’t sure anyone else would be interested in it.
A solid tallow-based soap with a super fat around 7%, very low coconut (so not a high suds), these bring non-drying cleansing to a new level. Enriched with healing organic Lavender essential oil, vitamin-laden avocado oil, raw organic cocoa butter, organic mango butter, raw organic shea butter, olive oil, super kind almond oil and nutrient-dense goat milk. Each bar weighs in at over 5.5 oz. This soap hardens up pretty well and should last a long time.
Part of the great improvement in my health has included exercise. After being told to ‘stay down’ for over a year to heal the adrenals, it was hard to get back up! All of the adrenal fatigue (dang-near failure!) mess caused a lot of muscle atrophy. Getting back into exercising caused some serious pain – the atrophied areas had developed ‘adhesions’ and there were interesting lumps and bumps that hurt like crazy. That pain was tolerable (barely) during the day, but to try and sleep with the pain was nearly impossible some nights.
Enter ‘Knock Out’. :) My new bff. This was part of a lesson for my herbal medicine and while I worked the lesson, I realized I could help myself out. I mixed up a blend that addressed my problems specifically and what do you know – it not only worked, but it worked GREAT. Because I ‘resist’ relaxation automatically (it’s just a thing I do), I made sure this would be able to overcome that tendency. Boy, does it ever.
Best sleep I’ve had in years. Consistently. I’m going to share my recipe and you can make your own or you may purchase this tea from me here
I use the ‘Simpler’ method to measure. A part is anything from a hand full to a teaspoon. If you choose to use a teaspoon as your ‘part’, then do so for the entire recipe. :)
1 part oats (not instant unless that’s all you can get)
2 parts Chamomile
1 part Hops flowers
1 part Skullcap
2 parts Lemon Balm
1 part California Poppy
Blend herbs together. The rate of usage is 1 teaspoon of dry tea per 1 cup of water. Infuse tea in hot water for a minimum of 10 minutes (15-20 is better), then drink 1/4 cup every half hour starting a couple hours before you want to be asleep. Yes, the entire cup may be consumed at once, but it will be a knock out.
If you’d rather just buy the tea from me, click here
Just a quick update for you. We have a lot of recipes posted here on Intrinsic Alchemist. They’re separated into Recipes 1 and Recipes 2 – if you’ll take a look at the links along the top of the page just under the header, you will see those links.
Recipes 1 consists of household and cleaning recipes. Recipes 2 is health, face and body care recipes. There are quite a few recipes posted so far – as time goes on, more recipes will be posted for use.
OK, this is a touchy subject, but everyone DOES it.
Number 2. Drop a deuce. Poo. Hence the name, Numero Dos. Made with all natural NON-chemical ingredients, this little gem will not only save embarrassment. it won’t poison you or your environment!
Simply spray a few sprays on the surface of the water, go, flush.
But that’s not where the usefulness of this stuff ends. Deodorize the air, stinky shoes, etc. Because there are essential oils and glycerin in this, test it on an inconspicuous spot first – the essential oils are strong and, well, glycerin is glycerin – not really an oil, not really water. They may make spots on certain fabrics or surfaces – they’ll likely be fairly easy to clean. But you’ve been warned – I’m not coming to clean it if you mess up… LOL :)
1. Not all soaps are going to be available all the time. If you have found a favorite and the ingredients used are seasonal (such as the Prickly Pear), or you have an idea for a soap that you’d like to have made just for you, please feel free to place a custom order for an entire batch of it. We will require half of the cost as a down payment, then the balance when the batch is ready to ship.
If you’re ordering a soap that we’ve made for the store previously, YOUR SOAP WILL GET MADE FIRST, the soap for the store will be made after your custom order. If you think you can use 9 or more bars of soap within a year, this is a great money-saving way to buy your soap. The minimum is a 2 pound batch (nine 2″ x 3″ bars).
2. These are high quality ARTISAN soaps. If you do buy an entire batch, consider keeping them in the freezer or fridge. They’re going to be fresh for about a year at room temperatures. Especially ones with a very high super fat.
3. We are working on rolling out new products. If there is something you’d love to see, feel free to contact us and ask about it. Chances are, we’ve already got a recipe in formulation!
4. Don’t be misled by soaps labeled as ‘organic’. While we use organic oils, the very best lye available is ‘Food Grade’ (and that IS what we use!) but it is not organic (‘organic’ lye simply cannot be obtained), so the soaps cannot be labeled ‘organic’. Soap cannot be made without lye.
Thank you for stopping by. We’re glad you’re here!
There are many essential oil companies out there that want to sell you their essential oil blends for fighting germs – usually with a name containing the word “shield” or “guard” (hey, maybe we should call this recipe Germ Warrior! LOL) – and each one is a variation on a theme: Thieves Oil.
There are several old stories about how the Thieves Oil blend came to be known – they’re also usually quite similar: during a plague, there was a band of thieves taking the valuables from the homes of dying or recently dead plague victims. The king of the land set his henchmen out to find these thieves – not because of the lucre they’d stolen, but because of the fact they’d been in close quarters with plague victims and their homes without getting sick. The merry band of thieves explained their method to the king and it was this blend that came to be known as Thieves Oil.
In looking around, there are many, many recipes out there for Thieves Oil. Yes, buying all the essential oils, then blending them is not cheap. However, in many, if not most cases it’s a heck of a lot cheaper than buying the premade blend! Not only that, but so many of them are not organic in any way. Hello! Just how much pesticide is one body capable of handling? Medicinal plants are just as susceptible to pests as any other and if the essential oil is not organic, I’m not inclined to spend my money on it.
The basic elements in Thieves Oil are as follows: Clove bud, Cinnamon bark, Eucalyptus, Rosemary, and Lemon.
Some take the lemon out and use orange instead (which probably smells and tastes good, but the lemon is a better germ killer!), others add essential oils such as Oregano (anti-bacterial, natural antibiotic, germ killing) to their blend. Some recipes call for equal amounts of each of the five essential oils.
I’m going to give you the basic, old, Thieves Oil recipe here – this is the one that I believe saved me from the flu in February when everyone else in the household was coughing and sneezing right on me (that’s right – I never caught it! woohoo). What you add to it to make it work for you is up to you.
Mix into a dark glass bottle. Other oils you may wish to add: Orange, lavender, tea tree, cedar. Start with a smaller batch and experiment – see what works best for you.
– For Encapsulation: To a ’00’ capsule, add 6 drops of Thieves Oil, press together and take up to 4 times a day.
– Antibiotic Blend Encapsulations: To a ’00’ capsule, add 8 drops of Thieves Oil, 4 drops of Oregano essential oil, 1 drop of Frankincense (if available), press the capsule together. Don’t over do this one, it’s quite strong.
*I’ve formulated this recipe at 100 drops. A 15ml (1/2 oz +/-) bottle will hold about 250 drops, a 5ml bottle will hold about 85 drops. The percentages are in parentheses so that you can figure out how much you need of each for a different sized batch. Total number of drops desired x percentage of each oil (do each calculation separately) = number of drops needed of each oil for batch size.
OK, the first soap here is the Herbal Bar – we used to call it the Dog Shampoo Bar, but so many people loved it for themselves, we are just calling it Herbal Bar. It is VERY cleansing – which is what makes it great for the pooches! It is also a great kitchen soap. To me, the smell is heavenly and invigorating. This soap doesn’t really have much of a superfat, only about 1 percent. Enriched with cedar, thuja, spruce, rosemary and sage essential oils as well as aloe vera, jojoba and kaolin clay, this soap takes on life with a full one foot cutting from my organic Rosemary bush! I love the way the house smells while this soap is curing.
Instructions for use on dog: Wet down your dog, rub the bar of soap directly on the dog, rinse. Repeat if necessary. Use a washcloth on the dog’s face. Soap stings the eyes.
Pregnant ladies should avoid prolonged exposure to this soap because of the rosemary. Rosemary brings on the menses.
Laundry Soap is never out of stock. These recent batches aren’t as white as previous batches – that is because the essential oil that is being used currently has a good amount of color in it. It still cleans as well as ever, it’s just not pure white. It’s listed on the Artisanal Soaps Available at the VERY BOTTOM OF THE PAGE – scroll down when you get there.